You said it’s my choice
Can I choose you?
Your epic sense of style
and your eyes so blue
And speaking of eyes,
So what if they’re green?
When I look through these tears
Only beauty can be seen
What about your humor?
Can I choose that too?
To hear your quirky comebacks
As each day is renewed?
Is your soul off limits
or can that be my choice?
Your undying love for God
Proclaimed by your voice
Is any part of you
quite beyond my reach
Or would you give me your heart
If I did so beseech?
But who am I kidding
That’s not what you meant
When you imparted my choice
With the last text you sent
I guess I’ll keep quiet
I guess I’ll be still
And I won’t make a choice
Because I trust that God will
possible future lyrics to a song:
torn between sleep and stars
So, I’ve been busy with work and school and not much else recently. I’ve been in the process of making some sweet friends and getting to be better friends with old ones. Life is pretty grand! I wish I had more to tell you, but I can’t think of much to say right now. All my love!
the truth is, because I miss you, but value your friendship too much to tell you… and that’s why you’ll never know.
*sigh*
Hey y’all! I’m just typing a quick post between my classes this wonderful Wednesday. Dropped by my coach’s office today and we chatted for a bit. He’s got to be one of my favorite people ever 
Then I meandered over to BK to get a chicken sandwich and dropped off a little letter for Chris. Right now I am watching/listening to a video about terrorism and torture and stuff. It’s moving along pretty slowly, but if I watch these videos and type up summaries for them I get extra credit, so I figure it is worth it. I guess I should focus on that. Love yas!
So, I wrote a little something tonight on my gui-tar, and I think it sounds pretty good, although I’m not very good at switching chords yet. It goes to some words in Psalm 119, and is pretty much only a chorus, but you’ve got to start somewhere, right? Anyway, it goes a-like theeeees:
Give me life, according to you word
I am laid low, down in the dust
Give me life, according to you word
Turn my eyes from the things of the world
*random aside* I cheated on both the facebook thing and the cell phone thing today. Dang it… and on top of that, I just lost the game 
You know, it’s been a while since I’ve looked under the folder simply titled “Music” on my computer. Mostly, this is because that’s where I put all the free downloads from Itickets. I enjoy several of the songs that I’ve acquired from there, but the thing is, I don’t have them as a hard copy, so I typically don’t listen to them enough to rank them among the songs I love. Anyways, I’ve got a few other songs in there that I didn’t get from Itickets. These songs were e-mailed to me from my friend Clint… namely because he played in the recordings. ^_^ Anyways, today I decided to listen to them, and they really are something else. They are praise. But not in the sense that so many other songs are praise. These songs are not sung for other people, they are sung for God. While you could easily sing these in a congregation, several of these could be whispered as prayers when you’re by yourself doing devotions. That is why I suggest you check out Jared Wood at his myspace site: http://www.myspace.com/Jaredwoodmusic. Trust me. You won’t be disappointed. ^_^
Why is this the first time I’ve heard DC*B’s Dirty Beats Mix of Open Skies? It’s just like… perfect! <3 it!
Also… there's a person in my vicinity who is wearing the most amazing smelling something ever. It's driving me crazy! Gosh, why am I so affected by smells? I should ask every person around me what fragrance they are wearing and systematically eliminate them until the one that's driving me crazy is the only one left. No wait… I shouldn't do that. That would prove my craziness… and probably creep out a fair number of people in the process.
Anyways, I'm just chillin' in LCC's computer lab right now, and don't know what else to do. I've taken a hiatus from Facebook and texting. I'm not sure how long it will last, I just know that they consumer too much of my attention and thus must be removed so that I can form a better relationship with God. I was reading a couple Proverbs and listening to DC*B on their Purevolume, but I took a short break from the reading to blog on the song and smell. I was going to get ahead in my WRIT122 class, but when I went to check the book out of the Library, someone already was using it. I guess I should probably print off a political article of some sort and write an opinion on it so I can get extra credit in my POLS120 class. Sounds like a good idea. I'll do that. And maybe get something to eat. A piece of apple pie is by no means a healthy breakfast, and if I put it off, it may be my lunch as well :-S
*hugs love and prayer*
—-random thought—-
Old-school MAE sounds kinda like Owl City
So, I really enjoyed my classes this past Monday, but I think I’m gonna be dropping my online classes. I don’t understand instructions well unless they are physically explained to me. I quite suck at reading directions and understanding what to do. Anyways, that will relieve a bit of stress, and since I don’t plan on graduating this year, I think it’ll be ok. I won’t be on my mom’s insurance anymore, but the only things I really used it for were softball physicals and eye appointments. Considering I don’t play softball for a college anymore, I shouldn’t need the former, and considering I have glasses, I shouldn’t need the latter. I know insurance is supposed to protect you in case of emergencies, but I’m hoping if there’s anything drastic enough to put me in the hospital happening to me that it would just as well kill me instead.
Anyways, this is my second day of classes, and I can’t sleep again. On Monday when I had classes 8-10, 12-2 and work from 3-10 I got maybe 2 hours of sleep before hand. Luckily I won’t have to work today, but I would like more than 2 hours of sleep tonight. Maybe I’m just still excited.
This weekend has been pretty fabulous. In the past 3 days I have seen each of my siblings and for those of you who know my family, it doesn’t happen too often. It has kinda sucked that I’ve had to work the past 3 nights missing most of the family-hanging out time, but at least I’ve gotten to enjoy their company in the mornings and early afternoon.
Other stuff: I’ve been working on a song I wrote. I play it so much I get a cramp in my left hand from holding the guitar at least a couple times a day. I’m really excited to be getting better at it, and I hope to one day play it for the person it was written for. I might just chicken out and record it and give it to him though.
Anyways, God has been showing me some stuff lately – some deep-seeded stuff that really needs to surface so that it can be dealt with and thrown away like the trash that it is. The lust and pride and stubbornness that I’ve seen in myself the past couple of days is quite the most repulsive thing ever. It’s helping me realize just how much I need God’s saving grace. I can’t fix myself on my own, and I know that. What can wash away my sin? Nothing but the blood of Jesus!
